Today is the day I hate the most. Monday. I am tired after this two second weekend. Plus all the amount of studying and the countless homework we got. The reason why I started studying is because we are going to start our examination next week.
I can't believe that it's already six days after the kiss. And Sean and I haven't talked at all. Maybe Karen was right. But who cares? It's not like I like him or anything. But at the end of the day, it still hurts to know that one of your enemies was right about something. And to think I thought maybe that was the beginning of something new. And I see him on a daily basis and he didn't even say hi. How rude of him but honestly what did I expect?
After countless classes which are nine in total and homework from different teachers, it is finally after school. Leaving the classroom I make my way to the hostel. Oddly enough, the hostel is a certain distance from the school. Not even the same compound. The girls and the boys hostel are in the same compound but separated by a kitchen in the middle. The only time that the two genders get to meet is during breakfast and dinner. Lunch is given out as takeaways as some have extra activities like culture, athletics and sports.
"Loverina." I hear someone call from behind me. I turn around and see that it's Sean calling me.
"Hi" I say awkwardly after waiting for him to catch up.
"How have you been?" he asks as we continue to walk.
"Good what about you?" I ask returning the question.
"It's been good. I never really asked, how was last Tuesday?"
"It was surprisingly fun. Even though I didn't really get to eat the whole chocolate. Which reminds me, you owe me a chocolate." I start to rumble due to nervousness.
"But I got you a chocolate last week." he defends.
"You did but you ate most of it." I attack.
"Okay fine I will get you another one. Tomorrow at 3:00 PM?" he asks offering.
"Great. Just don't eat it this time please." I say more like beg. He gives me a small smile and walks ahead of me. I can't believe Sean asked me out again. There is something about him that makes me just wanna go back. He is really noticeable even though I started to notice him after we played cards.
I still remember the days we played them. We were in the study hall at the hostel. What was a game for girls only turned into a game for both girls and boys. It was about having the most allies. At that time I didn't trust anyone. I still don't but still.
That day we made abet to see who would make it to the last round or who would be the last one standing between us. The last one standing would either be named king or queen. But that didn't stop us from playing together trying to eliminate our enemies.
We played and soon enough I was the queen.I didn't care about being the queen, I genuinely enjoyed playing with him. It was really nice. But those were the days when I didn't feel anything for him. The days when I still had my first kiss to give. I still can't believe he took my first kiss. But I gave it to him.
*The next day*
It's that time of the month. When the lining in the uterus breaks down and blood comes out in the form of menstruation. Possible symptoms are cramps, lower back pains, diarrhea or constipation, mood swings, changes in appetite, and breast swelling or tenderness. Luckily the symptoms go away after the long and excruciating 4-5 days of bleeding.
But these meaningless periods won't stop me from going to meet Sean at 3. He keeps me in good company and a very good listener.
"Loverina are you alright?" asks Regina noticing my crouching position. Due to the menacing period crams, I had resorted to crouching on the floor and pressing my legs against my abdomen. It lessens the pain but doesn't really take it away.
"It's nothing really. I should really get going." I say as i stand up and change into some black leggings and a white t-shirt. I don't like colourful clothes. They make me feel like something.
"It's Tuesday where are you going darling?" she asks because I am not the one to go anywhere unless its Monday or Wednesday. The rest of the week is spent with me on my bed on my phone or pretending to study. Then when it's really studying, I would then do my homework.
"I am going to town with Sean. He asked me yesterday." I tell her as I make a beeline for the door. Knowing her, I will get interrogated.
Before I left I went to the toilet and did my business. There is nothing more awkward and uncomfortable than walking around even though you need to go to the loo.
I met Sean at the school gate. There are 5 gates in total. One at the back three at the front and one that connects the side of the boys hostel to the school. He might have used the side gate and came out the bottom front gate. The three gates at the front are placed in a weird way. One is connected to the field and the other one is the main gate. There is also between these two gates. But they all connect as you can use any and still end up in school. But it depends where you wanna go and where you are coming from.
He was wearing a white singlet and a blue short sleeved t-shirt with black joggers. Black cap in place and yeah ready to go. He never really dresses up and this seems to be his style.
*Sean POV *
The walk to town that takes me 15 minutes max took us more or less 30 minutes which seems like 2 minutes considering how much we talked and the various topics we covered which evolved from school to food to music to a bit of personal information.
We bought a few sweet things and a bottle of water. Then we went to the park. At some point during the walk we ended up complimenting each other.
"You are handsome and cute" she had said and I had blushed. The look in her eyes told me that she was serious. I had thanked her embarrassingly. The way she said it was like she wanted me to know that I am handsome and cute. Like it is meant to be a known fact. Makes me embarrassed and a bit happy how she casually said that.
After that interesting moment we left and sat at the park to relax. Last year I had realised that she is someone who is reserved. But right now we are sitting here, she is nothing but comfortable.
I remember last year during the game of cards, we would touch unconsciously. She seemed to not have noticed, if she did, she didn't really mind. People who were there said we touched and we were flirting. But we weren't. We were merely talking at that time and we only talked about cards.
What they were thinking at that time was nothing but assumptions. Even now, and the thing that annoys me the most is the fact that Regina keeps on saying that Loverina has a crush on me. But I had thought she is the one who has a crush on me considering the time we kissed last year when we went to a guest house for the weekend.
That weekend was a long weekend. We didn't want to go to another country so we decided to stay at a guest house. It was a few of us. Regina, me, Bennett, George and a few. That Saturday evening we decided to buy some alcohol and we drank. At some point I ended up in the same room with her alone and one thing led to another. Then boom, we kissed. Apparently it was her first kiss and I really don't know what to say because I was drunk and barely remember what happened.After that, she would stick around me. And at first I thought it was nice but later on, it started to bother me. But at some point it ended.
Back to the main point.
She is the first girl to make sure I heard that I am handsome and in an absurd type of a way, it makes me feel confident about my looks. Many girls have said this before but not like her. And I am going to remember it until until.
The silence engulfed us as we sat on the park benches underneath a huge tree. It wasn't an uncomfortable silence. We were both lost in thought. I want to know what she is thinking about at the current moment.
* Loverina POV*
The minute I had said to Sean that he was handsome and cute, I had regretted it. Not only did I feel embarrassed by utterance but he seemed uncomfortable. He mumbled a small thank you and since then he was lost in thought.
At the current moment me and him sitting here in silence, I felt the need to break it. Turing towards him I realised how relaxed his face was. Not the notorious look he always spotted with. Every time I see him with his friends, he always had their look that says don't-fuck-with-me. But looking at him right now, all his facial muscles are relaxed. Everything about him screams relaxed. I am sure if I would tickle him right now he would laugh.