I just want to be the cutest thing you've ever seen
The best thing imaginable
I wanna be dainty and thin and androgynous
With no curves or curls
I wanna be flat and elegant
I wanna look good in everything
I wanna be pudgy
I want meat on my bones
And when I flex I can see bicep veins
I want thighs that touch and wide hips
I want a flat chest that can still look good in corsets
I want a body I like
This one's fine but every other detail is a negative
My adams apple is more like a seed
My shoulders aren't very square
I wanna be able to be the shit out of someone who needs a lesson
I want to be feral and dirty and horrifying
I want to be unrecognizable
I dont want to be human
I want to be man
I want to be a monster with pointy fangs and talons and harpy legs
With siren songs and selkie skin
I want to have banshee eyes
And I want to be a spider
I want extra limbs and a web I can bundle in like my old cocoon
I want big hands that can hold a door open for a boy
I want to look serious
I want to be the cutest thing you've ever seen
Something frilly,satin and pink
But I want to be covered in blood and Lurking in cemeteries
I want so many things
And I'm never going to have them
Not with this body
Not with this vessel
Maybe I'll never be enough
Never cute enough
Never tall enough
Never strong enough
Never smart enough
Just tell me I'm the cutest thing you've ever seen
Let me be the best thing imaginable to you
Just something to you
Cute or not
Let me be something I'm happy with