Fuck!
Yeah, I just felt like saying that.
I'm annoyed, but not really.
Here's the thing: I talk a lot. If I know you, I'll yap for hours. And hours. And hours. But no one really listens. Maybe it's because I'm a bit of a pest. Or maybe it's because I disturb too much.
Honestly, that's probably why I created this book—to have a place to yap. If you don't want to think too hard and just want to listen to someone ramble, congratulations! You've found the right book.
Fun fact: I got banned on Facebook. Why? Over-promoting. Yep, I was that annoying. And no, I'm not proud of it.
Here's the irony: with people I don't know, people I don't vibe with, or people who don't listen—I'm the complete opposite. Silence. Pure, unbothered silence. I can sit in a room for three days and not say a word. I'm that good at the silent treatment.
If they were giving out a Queen of Silent Treatment award? That crown is mine.
I'm the definition of malice. I won't talk to you even if I'm about to die. I could probably watch you get hit by a bus and just walk away because I don't want to say a word to you.
…Okay, maybe not.
But you get the point. It's not a good character trait—it's a coping mechanism. A way to protect myself so I don't get hurt. Because here's the truth: I'm easily hurt. Way too easily.
That's why it's so hard for me to make friends. Weirdly enough, I do make friends easily. But I lose them just as fast.
You know what I hate the most?
I've never had a friend that was just mine. My ex-best friend and all my other friends? They always had someone else. Someone better. So even if I was theirs, I was never theirs alone.
I hate being an option.
That's why I talk to a lot of people but never stick to them. I make it a point to move on and forget about them whenever things go wrong. That way, no one gets hurt. Not them, not me. And I always have someone else to talk to.
Yeah, it's pathetic. I know it is.
But in the end, the only person you really need is yourself. So, love yourself. Love yourself so much that no one else matters. Because when it's all said and done, you only have you.