I remember a day when Lucien was just a fiction , never thought to be real. It has been one and half years that I found Lucien coming to me
It was 9 pm I suddenly woke up from a nap . I still felt dizzy ,I took a carton of coffee and drew the curtain, cool freeze touched my soul as never before,through a wide open window . I went out , roamed garden till late hour , looked at sky and wondered
"it is not about I can't do , it is about I don't want to do" .
Staring at stars till late night as usual and feel something weird, looked around and found a tall man of about 6 ft wearing black suit,veiny hands and black shoes but face remain blur to my eyes .I asked
Who are you?
Your illusion. He replied
I tried to get close to him, tried to touch him but everything disappeared .
Foolish thing came from nowhere and disappeared all of sudden . I murmured to myself.
Actually I didn't took it serious because I was pretty sure that it might be my illusion. I had been diagnosed by a severe anxiety ,had many anxiety attacks, felt lonely.doctor told me illusion might happen in this case.
I had been always lonely in those days, only writing was my passion. I have never fallen in love with someone since a boy cheated on me. It had been a decade ,I was dumped and got used to writing . I developed intrest in writing but I always wrote fiction because I believed people weren't worthy of being trusted .
One night I dreamt of a handsome boy , in morning I hardly remembered all the details but I wove it into my new novel , the boy had curly hair and a cheerful smile,I made the boy a fictional character of my novel and decided to name it Lucien as it was just a ray of light to my dream ,but shone beautifully . This novel of mine has always been my favourite and readers believed it was my masterpiece novel, everyone admired the novel and characters and I gained fame . With the passage of time I fell in love with the character. I always wanted to meet him despite being fictional but nothing happened as per my wishes.
After half an year of completing my novel ,I went through the illusion.