Chapter 5
It's been days since the accident happened, yet I couldn't stop thinking about him.
No, I shouldn't it is too early to love someone else after what Williams did to me.
Williams hasn't even called me since that day.
Oh, I forgot I lost my phone.
***
I needed to take a walk, because the whole incident that happened recently has been a lot to deal with.
I just needed to clear my heads up.
I wore a long bogus black dress, tied my hair up almost like a pony but trust me it was a mess.
Lately, I care less about my appearance, I just want to recover quickly and leave this city to a far place where I was not known and live a happy simple life.
Mia was sitting on a couch in the living room operating her laptop, she's been really busy lately.
"Going somewhere? " she asked still focused on her laptop.
" just decided to take a walk, wanna join me?" I replied, despite knowing she won't come with me.
"I would have loved to, but I'm really busy " she said finally looking at me with that expression that says " I'm sorry, don't be mad".
"It's fine, I wasn't even expecting a positive response" I said while pinching her nose softly.
"I'm sorry girl, after this project it is us forever " she said smiling .
"Us forever?, please I don't want your boyfriend to come for me " I replied twitching my face to annoy her.
She looked up with mouth half open before she started laughing.
" someone is turning pale and speechless " i said obviously teasing her more.
We chuckled before I left.
***
Outside..
I've been walking as long as I can remember, lost in my own thoughts.
I wanted to clear my head but I couldn't.
Every memory of everything keeps crawling back to me.
I felt like stabbing myself but will it make me happier?
Nothing seems to make sense to me, the fact that Williams didn't end this relationship when we were still dating, he allowed us to fix a date for our wedding, not only did he do that.
He broke up with me on a day before our very own wedding.
My heart felt like tearing apart, it could no longer contain the pain.
My chest was heavy, every beat seemed to echo like a drum, the weight of the emotions was pressing me down.
Every step I took expecting to get a relief brought more anxiety, the air around me grew heavier, suffocating me the more.
I tried not to let my emotions out, but the tears betrayed me as they rush down my cheeks leaving me fragile and vulnerable.
I was tired, really tired.
The street seems to be quiet but I didn't want to go back to Mia's house at least not in this state.
Knowing Mia too well, she will be worried sick if she sees me crying.
So I went forward.
After a while, I felt being watched.
Someone was following me.
I'm sure of this.
My senses were now at alert, my skin prickling with unease.
My heart was no longer in a sober state, it was thudding in anticipation.
"Who is watching me ?"
" And why?"
I stopped walking, my breath catching in the air.
" why I'm I always in danger?"
The street was now very quiet.
I stood there for a while, trying to observe if I could see who's watching me but nothing.
" I think I've gotten enough walk, I'm going home" i muttered to myself before heading home.
I could still sense someone or maybe people around me, silently watching and following me.
I increased my pace.
Hurriedly I got home.
I met Mia in the dinner room, she was eating, I joined her.
I wanted to tell Mia what happened this evening but I didn't want to stress her more.
She's been very busy with work for the last couple of days, I don't want her to start finding ways to protect me, when she should be concentrating on her work.
I debated whether to share this update with her or not.
Finally, I decided not to tell her.
We ate in silence, each other's heart heaving with the weight of the silence.
This was very unusual.
The silence built tension.
She also wanted to tell me something but don't know how to.
I could sense it from the way she looked at me.
"You know, you could actually tell me what's wrong, other than just looking at me" i said
"I have nothing to say, I'm just happy you are getting better " she said casually.
"Are you sure ?" I asked looking directly into her eyes.
She hesitated as if contemplating on telling me, before looking away with a forced smile
"Yeah, sure"
I nodded .
The rest of evening went in silence.
I had my bath and tried forcing myself to sleep.
Sleep was far away from me.
I closed my eyes as I tried to fall asleep.
"Raaayy, please don't leave me"
"I'm not going anywhere " the other voice responded
"Raayyy, look back"
"Raaayy!"
"No!, not my Raaayy!"
I woke up, my clothes soaked with sweat.
"A night mare?"