I believe I was almost locked to a chair, forced to meditate on whatever locked me here. I couldn't see the shape of what I was at this present moment.
I heard an ominous sound in every direction. I'm in a garden—the grass is lush green, like luminescent emerald.
The chair… why is it on a circle? That circle—one word came to mind: enso. I knew not its meaning. It felt simple. Empty. I didn't care to ponder a circle. This place—it felt messed up.
Why was I here?
The surroundings tangled me in knots. It was a perilous labyrinth.
Apparently I was accustomed to strange places—but not this one. Or rather, not now. I'm filled with a constriction in my invisible chest. Invisible… perhaps because this is the Ill-Silks' domain. I wouldn't know. They're usually beneath me—but now upon the surface, the mundane.
I was drowning, I think. My mother drowned me after expecting me to swim. She never loved me, I think.
I was cold. It was so cold in that moistness.
What am I?
Who am I?
Am I dreaming?
I feel the mind can distinguish between reality and dreams. But perhaps I'm mad.
Well—if I am mad, then good.
Better than being bored. I have a vague feeling toward that sentiment.
I believe I'm a marionette being pulled along by the strings of fate—but I don't care.
I'm so ungodly alone.
I hate those who claim of God. It's so lonely.
Or no—I don't. I hate those who wish for God to hand them a silver spoon.
What is a spoon?
It's so simple it makes me feel happy.
Whatever a spoon is doesn't matter now.
Now, with my eye, I must look. Right.
For you. You gave me a vague elucidation of concepts unknown.
I'm over it frankly—The Mystery.
Yes. The Mystery. It compels me…
It's time to wake up—or be born?
This is a dream. Why am I dreaming?
Why am I allowed to dream?
I wish to Be, but The Mystery suggests I can only do after that. However, I can only do to the extent that I am. But I only am based upon what I think. So The Mystery loves me to think. Think I shall.
I will not think to act while frozen this time.
The Mystery shields me. The Mystery fills me with apprehension.
I will chase The Mystery.
So this time—and only this time—
I will not sloth from the perch of my false majesty.