They know, you know, just accept it
Sitting alone, empty, throwing my mind astray.
"As per usual"
But one name, one more than any, suffocating my mind.
The girl he mentioned before.
…Who was she?
I knew.
I ruined her.
"Honey, dinners ready!"
Face jolted back into reality once more as I sat still. Mother's words somewhat acted as a reprieve for my muddled mind as I instinctively replied back.
"a…Sure! Thanks mom!'
Perhaps I'll sleep on it.
I can't be more than certain in this situation.
But I need to be sure nonetheless.
…
No need darling
Keep me close
You'll be finer that way
Shut those pretty eyes and leave it all to me
In my worst memories, they shrouded my dreams.
"Fuck her Robin"
Face melting as I stood there, divided by two sides of one coin.
His hands suddenly slid onto my skin through my singlet, piercing every hair on my chest as he laid his head on my shoulder.
"...Or do you want me instead? Either way I'll make you feel happy"
Laughter ensued as we stood there, near naked and fully intoxicated.
Her breasts were in full display as I looked at her chest, large areolas betwixt by her beautiful nipples, large and erect.
Take me away.
For I have already been lost to lust.
"Fucking ruin her"
A soft, subtle voice reached me like a moth to light.
Peer pressure made me most vulnerable in this situation.
Ferociously.
I needed this.
I wanted this.
…Did I need this?
"...We can just, uhm… you can suck my tits if that's enough right?"
"A dares a dare. Just take his cock out and fuck it"
Lights from cameras shrouded us in white phosphorus illumination as I grabbed her face toward mine, knowing not what exactly I was doing, yet delving deep into the unknown nonetheless.
"...Let's fuck babe"
Pulsing my hand toward her jeans, feeling what I thought was her crotch area, her moans confirmed as such. A whisper once again hit me from such an angelic devil, subtle yet volatile.
"I want you to ruin her"
9 AM, Home
"Fucking hell"
I know, but I don't fully understand.
Something, anything?!
Waking up to a flurry of unanswered statements, fact or fiction?
Shit.
SHE DOESN'T WANT M-
Shut it
…
…Did I…?
"Morning kitten"
Arun's hands stretched around me in my bed as I laid lifeless, still and pale as he reached for my face, fingers reaching my mouth as he toyed with my skin.
"Wouldn't want your parents hearing us, right?"
Oh.
Right.
Our agreement.
…
HUH?!
Wait a minu-
"Shhh… I know that pretty little mind of yours is racing"
Reaching for my crotch as he pulled me further toward him, the scent of alcohol pungent as he pushed his lips onto mine, somewhat familiar as I showed no hesitation in my actions.
Feeling once again, familiar.
"...Finish me?"
I asked almost instinctively
Instinctively?
Wait what the fu-
As if to reply in just, grabbing my cock through my pants, underwear falling to the wayside, erection on full display as he began to stroke it lovingly, if this was something he had already been accustomed too, pleasure mixed with confusion infused in my mind.
"I'll let you cum, just don't toy with me again alright?"
Stroking me as he licked my face, each movement subtle yet ferocious.
"Just remember your place"
Climax finally reached as I grunted slightly, grabbing his hand as each wave hit like a tsunami, drowning and dissolving me.
The devil has amnesia.
Needed context now a figment, blown by the wind.
OKAY SO NOW WHAT YOU VILE HEATHEN?
…
HE KNOWS
He doesn't
OH DOES HE NOT?
Give it time darling
…
I knew.
I know.
Or at least…
I thought I knew.
So severin my mind was to keep these thoughts a secret, the how and why unknown to me, taunting me like flies surrounding my skin, gnawing at every fibre of my being.
Should I have known?
Why was Arun here? Huh, guess I should've given some context first right?
Sorry guys, just trying to keep sane here.
"I've got shit to do anyways today so I'll leave you, but just remember. You're mine"
Kissing my neck tenderly before he left the confines of my single bed, picking up his clothes swiftly and putting his clothes on piece by piece.
Walking toward my now open window in my room, breeze flowing through his mesmerizing red coat and loose jeans as he leaned through and over the window.
Gone.
Something my mind wanted to rectify, wanting to go outside and pin him down, never for him to leave.
No, I couldn't, could I?
No.
'Next Saturday cool yeah?'
Down the rabbit hole I go.
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END OF PART ONE