Suguru Hanami 32 Years old man who is now living in his past life, and his own child form body, he hates the idea of him being in past life, seeing his life restarted it was absolute horrible.
Suguru mindset still the same he still the 32 years old man, he doesnt want to change, He already does being what he wanted so changing back is very frustated on him.
Suguru doesnt want to change, he already done and its must not change, so he decided to not into middle school.
Take look of the view on the outside its pretty warm, couple of people are talking, a bit nosy sound of car and bike can heared from his ears, its make him pisses off.
Kaede: [Suguru-chan~ i am going to work so stay home okay?] Kaede looking at suguru warmly, she kneel a bit to blow a kiss into suguru head.
This time suguru doesnt want it, he dodge and snitch out of her graps and looked at her in annoyed, hatred looks, Kaede suprised but she nods and smiles at him behavior.
Before then she stand up and leaving him alone going outside for her works, kaede basically work as animal doctor, she always bring every animal who injured into the house, where she put the animal into special room.
Suguru opened the room and there multiple of tools of medical for animal, suguru doesnt amazed but doesnt really care about the animal dies or not, its their fates, but her mom can takecare of it.
Her mom basically, looks like an angel to the patient, she takes care and makesure they doesnt terrified of her, she has soft hand, doesnt struggle when facing a death animal.
Once their wounds handled by her, its was always 100% Succsesfully, she smart, the smartest among the family, so thats why all of children are smarts too.
Well difference than a game, Suguru must helped them so he will wins aswell, he likes rpg and games startegist, he have many friends in his Online chatting, but he always hides his identity beacuse the internet has weirdo and disgusting people.
But to be honest he cannot do anything besides to wait and become slumber again, leaning into his bed while watching himself drown into the bed.
Nothing was defeating the pleasure he already had in future, for him this is just torture, his face can have been seen always stressed and furious everytime he thinks about it.
He does ask one thing
He wonder but it might be gonna do something about himself in future, maybe he died? Or maybe someone send him here?
Suguru mind cannot explain such impossible being, he shakes his head and his eyes wondering what could possibly happend to him in future?
Why would he ended up in here? Is it really to make him suffer or.. suguru stopped there and he grits his teeth thinking that, he clench his fist.
Looking straight into the lamp that he had been stare for longest time, he looking deeply, before the lamp shatteres blow into pieces, and spark flying on his face.
Suguru doesnt want to change, he already done and its must not change, so he decided to not into middle school.
Frustated suguru looking for something else, he needs to calm himself and also he had plan to tell his father about his deny of being in middleschool.
He founds out his father sitting cozyly on the livingroom, with his coffee and also newspaper.
He approach Tenma with confidence and he sitting down far from him, he doesnt say anything and take deep breath looking at the living room.
Suguru look at his father that reading newspaper, that old man is always reading something usseless in the news, he just build like that.
Suguru take deep breath and looks at his father and put his hand on the desk.
Suguru: [Dad, I dont wanna go to middleschool]
Tenma looking at him slightly and shrugs, he looking nonchalant and makes suguru suprised at his readtion, he just, agree?
Tenma: [Sure]
It make suguru relieve, shock, and even he confuses at his words, why would he letting his son not going into middleschool? He tough tenma would mad or even scold him.
But no, tenma just shrugs, nonchalant and even chill about it, he doesnt even neglect or forcing suguru into middleschool, thats make him not even calmer but rather worried about his dad desicion.
Thats though make suguru even confuses, he feels like he should happy about this but this 32 years oldman instead furious and refuses to believe, he desprate and his bow his head down in frustated.
Tenma: [we are sorry suguru..]
Suguru that bowing down desprate, he widened his eyes and looking up at tenma with more confused look, why he is sorry, he clench his fist on his lap.
Tenma: [we are too pushing on you Suguru.. you earn those thing.. beacuse of us and.. i see that you were in desprate beacuse of us..]
Tenma smiles at suguru gently and he put down his newspaper on the desk, the sound of the paper can been heard and suguru looking at his hand still widened eyes with confused.
Tenma come closer to him
Tenma: [but suguru..] he looked at his wife in picture of them, Suguru, tenma, Kaede, And Junko, They seems happy and smiling throught the warm of the pictures.
Tenma: [Your mom really want to take picture with you someday..] he take deep breath and smiles at suguru
Tenma: [i dont really force you..] He looked at Suguru and then take look at her wife.
Tenma: [If she smiling, its gonna bring joy to you.. or even everyone else in this house..] Suguru heard this just stunned.
Tenma: [I mean.. smiles when we all take picture together in your new middleschool.. not a harmful right?] He smiles and take off his hand from suguru head.
Tenma: [Well then suguru, do what you want and ill support you from behind] he giving an gentle smiles before he pick up his glass of coffee on the table.
And he splurps it gently before saying "ah" and then pick up the newspaper he had earlier in the table, and start reading it again.
Suguru cannot complain, he is happy.. but this is wrong too, he is in the middle of confusion of his father acting, he just.. way too caring of his son.
Suguru cannot accept this, he doesnt know what to do, its too much for him, the father he know that he had its just nonchalant and chill guy, who is he thinks just guy doesnt care about his son.. but he truly care.
He just want them to approach him, not him approach them.. beacuse Tenma truly know that if he approach first, their children will be uncomfortable on him, so one thing he had to do is wait and let them think.
He just wanted to provides everything for the family, and make them smiles and happy, and make them laugh together.
Tenma looking at the papernews and his eyes widened a bit before looking at suguru with slightly smiles face.
Tenma: [oh suguru, there is carnaval thing, do you want to go?] He seems a bit exicted to ask his son.
Suguru doesnt want it, he doesnt care about carnaval thing and he just wanted to be in home all alone and playing his joystick.
Suguru: [no, i dont wanna] suguru replies and his face still sharp and stern on tenma.
Tenma just nod understanding him, and he smiles going back to his ussually activities on reading newspaper.
Suguru more mad at this father-figure attitude, he is gritting his teeth in frustation, he want to punch the old man face if he could, why he doesnt yell at him? Doesnt he care about him? He doesnt even talk to him in the past.
His veins visibly and Suguru ask his father while holding back his anger on his gentle attitude.
Suguru: [father.. why would you let your son not to be in the middleschool?] He looking at him in eyes, wants to know his answer.
Tenma looked at suguru with confused expression, he already explain himself about it earlier about his reason to not force him.
The silent goes on and the Air conditioner still brewing the living room, giving cold and calm atsmosphere.
Suguru still waiting his father answer and Tenma stood there and then sigh realizing what he wanted from the start.
Tenma: [You suprised i didnt mad huh?, it is out first interaction tough suguru..] Suguru raises his eyes brows and waiting the next line of his.
Tenma; [to be honest.. you born beacuse of me.. and i had to take responsibility of everything what happend in your mind, so when you dont want it] he stopped before he continue looking at suguru.
Tenma: [ill gonna search and maybe.. me and your mom teach you this world not school..] he take breath and looks at suguru with warm dad smiles before he taking sip of his coffee
Tenma: [maybe.. thats sound more lovely and youll be more closer to us.. but when you are stand out by yourself.. its more than make us proud] Tenma continue and suguru stare at him, suguru eyes bit struggle to look at tenma anymore.
Tenma notices it and then he puts his left hand on his head and pat suguru head again and rubs it, he looking right into suguru eyes with calming tone.
Tenma: [We are love to see you growth whatever you like.. suguru..] He smiles before putting away his hand and goes back to his newspaper.
Suguru stood there, still not understanding he hates his own words and promising words, hell probably after this doesnt want see tenma anymore.
He just doesnt want to be like him.. he just too much for him, and to be honest tenma is worser than kaede, he is much much more broke suguru.
Suguru wondering if he does something wrong in this place, his eyes widenes open, his lips trembling, his hearts tightening of how much words can hurt him.
He breath heavily, and Tenma notice it and then he put his hand on suguru shoulder.
Tenma: [Dont to harsh for yourself suguru] Suguru looks at tenma his eyes squirt, dealing with his pain, tenma leans closer to suguru.
He hugs suguru head and put it right infront of his chest, suguru still in pain stated just stood there, he calmer.. he never tough his father..
His usseless father, who never actually meet him or even care about him, actually care about him.. he does damage to his heart, before suguru pull that old man away.
His mind then tells yell out his lungs, his eyes widened in hatred.
Suguru: [Why!? Why you all.. make me suffer!? Why you all keep making me dying!?] Suguru want to talk that towards his own dad but, he looked at his dad eyes..
its too affection, his dad showed, his eyes glimmer, his dad doesnt push suguru too forcefully, letting him to do whatever he wanted.
Suguru stop, his body decline, every single of that words comes out of his mind, Suguru feels conflicted, his ownself stabbing him from behind.
Before then tenma lookes at him once more in same warm.
Suguru silent, he then scoff and then grab the remote television, he still same, he still hate this place at all, suguru hate his father, he is the worst.
But he cannot handle him anymore, he want to cry-
But for tenma, he doesnt know why, Tenma Acceptence and kindess, also.. Wiseness, Make him even more deadly weapon on his heart.
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Suguru sniff, his eyes tears forming and Tenma shocked at his stated before he grab suguru in concern way, his eyes widened and he shakes suguru lightly.
Tenma: [s-suguru!?]
Tenma then hugs suguru into tight hug, he confuses and his mind tries to do something about his own sons sudden behaviour.
He never talk to suguru for the first time, he just tought somes words cannot hurt him, but no! He completely wrong and now he doesnt know what to do!
He is father figure but he never talk to his son deep like this before, he even more confused, his eyes moving right and left and his hand trembles as he tries to calm suguru.
Suguru stay in his father hugs, for longest time, he cries on that sofa wetting tenma clothes, holding tenma body tightly.
His chest tightened and his breath heavy, his tears goes down from his eyes, his body trembling, his eyes blurry..
Suguru feels very dizzy, he wants.. to falls..
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The television turned on and the screen showing news, Tenma still there watching the television with suguru.. that falls asleep in his lap.
Tenma: [suguru.. i hope.. you are recover from whatever pain you.. are hold..] tenma looking at suguru worriedly, his eyes melting as he sees how suguru peacefully sleeping.
And then he pat suguru head and continue watch the news.. and not awake his broke child sleeping..