I wake up the next day and I'm naked. I smile thinking about last night. What was i so afraid of? I look to my side and Ryujin is not in bed. Where did she go?
I stand up and grab the hotel robe to cover myself up. I walk to the door when I trip on something. I look down and it's Ryujin on the floor.
I sit on the floor, "Ryujin. What are you doing down here?" I shake her.
She groans and sits up. She's still naked too and her body looks good in daylight 100.
She rubs her eyes and she looks so cute, "You kept kicking me last night in your sleep. You even kicked me hard enough off the bed but I was too tired to bother going back so I just slept here" She explains and I feel bad.
"I'm sorry. Are you okay?" I try to help her up.
She chuckles, "Yes I'm fine. My back is a bit sore hut I'll live."
She gets up and puts on the other mbe. "What are we doing today?" I ask.
"We're going to the pier I believe. Then pack our stuff tonight because we're leaving early tomorrow" she says.
We go back to Michigan tomorrow. We spend our last couple of days there then we're going back to Canada. I get sad every time I think about it.
"What's with the sad look?" Ryujin ask. I shake my head to focus back to reality.
"I'm just sad that I'll be leaving soon. I'll just miss you so much. I don't know if you've noticed but its been a while since I've really pushed you away. I think it helps that we're together in person. I'm scared that when we're apart again, I'll do something stupid" I sigh.
"Why are you thinking that?" She sits me down on the hed and she sits next to me, "Nothing you do is stupid. I've told you before every emotion you feel is valid. Like I said before, you can push me away all you want and I won't hudge. Just don't shut me out."
I place a hand on her cheek, "Thank you for everything, Ryujin. Thank you for pulling me out of my hell. Thank you for loving me."
She closes her eyes, "Thank you for trying. I know it's hard but I see all the effort you're doing to not let your fear tear us apart."
Our moment is ruined when the hotel phone rings. Ryujin groans and I answer the phone clearly feeling annoyed.
"What?" I answer.
"Did you forget you're having breakfast with me? I'm sending Travis over there so she's not alone. Come quickly!" My sister says rushing me.
I hang up the phone without answering her. Ryujin gives me a weird look.
"It's my sister. I promised we would have breakfast together and I must have forgotten. Is it okay? She said she's sending Travis here so you two can have breakfast together" I say.
"That's fine. Have fun with your sister okay? She stands up.
"Oh do you want to use the bathroom first?" She ask as she offers her hand to me to help me stand too.
"You can use it. I'll grab my stuff and 1'11 just use the bathroom in my sister's room" I smile at her.
She pulls me in for a hug. She never raises her head so her mouth would be over my shoulder. If anything she lowers it more and presses her lips and nose on it
We stay there like that for a bit, I notice that she's holding on to me really tight like she's afraid to let me go.
"Are you okay?" I ask.
"Yea. I just want to stay in this position for a bit. It helps calm me down" she mumbles while her face is still buried in my shoulder.
I start rubbing her back to help soothe whatever she's feeling. I'm really not sure how to comfort people. I know she has depression but she doesn't really show it much. This is one of those rare moments where she seems vulnerable.
"I love you, Ryujin" I say.
She doesn't answer but just keeps hugging me. I pay attention to her breathing to make sure she's really okay.
After a while, she finally let go and I look at her face to see if something else is going on.
"What happened?" I ask.
"Sometimes my anxiety just gets the best of me. I don't really know what triggers it but it just happens. I just wanted to hold you because your scent and your touch, helps me" she explains.
"Are you gonna be okay? I don't have to go to my sister" I say.
She smiles at me, "Yes. I'm okay now. Enjoy your breakfast with your sister because you're gonna be with me the rest of the day."
"I am?" I question her.
"Yes. I hope it's okay but I ask my mom if she can watch Eva since it's our last day here" She says.
Normally I would mind but Ryujin and her family has been nothing hut amazing sn it's so easy to trust them.
She gives me a quick kiss on the lips then head to the bathroom. I grah my stuff and I leave the room to go to my sister's room, not caring that I'm just wearing a rube.
I knock on my sister's door and Travis opens the door.
"Woah, someone looks like they just had sex" Travis jokes. I push him aside and he just laughs.
"So how was it?" My sister ask. I did tell then my plan yesterday so it's my fault that they're this nosy now.
"As much as I like to hear about the details of sex. I don't feel right hearing about my future sister-in-law's sex experience with another woman" Travis comments.
"Shouldn't you be leaving now?" Karina glares at him.
"You're lucky your pregnant or_" he got cut off.
"Or what?!" Karina is ready to fight him.
"Dr I would be nothing because I'm so happy you're carrying the product of our love my darling" Travis tries to save himself.
"Leave before I skin your ass alive" Karina says and Travis quickly runs out the door.
"What was that?" I ask her.
"I don't know. I love the guy but sometimes he makes my skin crawl. He's so nice and caring like can you be a jerk for once so I don't feel bad when I yell at you?" Karina sighs.
"I was like that when I was pregnant with Eva except I didn't feel bad because Dana is a literal shiť" I laugh.
"Travis is a Saint, really. He's trying his best" my sister says.
"He's a good guy. I like him" I say
"He's probably gonna complain to Ryujin about me and Ryujin is gonna use that as ammo to make fun of me" She picks up the phone to order food service.
"I'll set her straight, don't worry" I chuckle. I start heading to the bathroom to shower.
"Anything good for you?" She ask.
I say yes before entering the bathroom. I take a quick shower. Dry my hair and get dressed. Once I'm out, someone knocks on the door and it's our food.
We get the food ready and we sit across from each other at the table.
"So how was last night?" Karina ask with a smirk.
"It was wow" is all I can say while i blush.
"That good huh?" She chuckles.
"There was a moment where she like told me I couldn't finish without her letting me and it turned me on so much" I say.
"And I actually felt satisfied afterwards. I wasn't frustrated or had to finish it myself I continue.
"And you were so scared to do it before" she shakes her head while taking hig hites of her breakfast.
"Are you enjoying yourselves?" I ask.
"Yes. This whole trip has been so relaxing aside when I randomly get annoyed by Travis' presence" she laughs.
"Honestly, I think you hit a jackpot with Ryujin. If you two get married, her family becomes your in laws and they're pretty amazing ton. Eva loves Mrs. Shin and Mrs. Shin loves you. Her sisters already accepts you. How do you feel about them?" She suddenly ask.
"It's all new to me. I'm so used to meeting parents where their baby boy can do no wrong" I sigh.
"Are you gonna be okay? When we go back to Canada?" She ask."I don't know but I have to push through it if I want this to work. I keep telling myself that it will be worth it in the end when I'm by her side all the time. I know it's too soon for us to take that step of engagement and such. I just have to control my paranoia and doubts" I take my last bite of food.
"But I really need to get a job when we go back I start stressing out.
"Stop stressing. We're not rushing you. It's Travis who actually told me that's its fine if we have to support you for a little bit. He says he sees you like his actual little sister" Karina smiles at me.
"He's just happy you're not with Dana anymore" my sister chuckles.
"If everyone hated him that much then why didn't anyone tell me?" I furrow my brows.
"Because you're a stubborn brat. If we tell you that, then you would push yourself more to him. You never liked being told what to do or what to like. We just had to hope that you'll grow up one day and see that he's not good for you which thankfully you did she explains.
"I love you, Yeji but sometimes you made your own life miserable. It was hard to watch but I couldn't do anything because whatever I say you would do the opposite."
"Why do you think Ryujin fell for me?" I ask now.
"Because you're still an amazing person Yeji. You just started hanging out with the wrong people. You started doing drugs and drinking a lot. Those people then started breaking you down so you can't stand on your own two feet. I think you suffered a lot growing up with our parents divorcing and other things that happened and you didn't get the proper help so you lost control of yourself. I don't know how but I think talking to a stranger, you were able to find yourself again.
Then Ryujin just encouraged that part of you instead of breaking it" she says making me feel emotional.
"Why do you think I fell for Ryujin?" I ask now curious what she thinks.
"There's many reasons why someone would fall for Ryujin because she's caring and understanding. But I think you fell for her because for once you didn't have to pretend. You showed her your good sides and your bad sides and she still stuck by you. I feel like when you pushed her away it wasn't because you're really scared. Maybe you were but I think you also did that to test her. Whether she would stay or not. I think you're also giving yourself a chance to be happy now. I look at you and I see the Yeji I knew when we were kids. I enjoy seeing this Veji again" she gives me a warm smile."Wow. I didn't realize you paid that much attention to my relationships" I try to joke.
"You're my sister. I have to look after you but you're just too stubborn to listen to me" she rolls her eyes.
She finishes her breakfast and she starts getting ready for the day. I get a text saying that Ryujin and Travis are gonna wait for us in the lobby and that the rest of Ryujin's family and Eva is already out doing some shopping before going to the Pier in the afternoon.