All of this, I can still accept, but seeing you, the one by my side, gradually turned from the golden couple everyone admired, childhood friends, to people saying I was freeloading, climbing up the social ladder, how could a poor boy match a phoenix...
Especially your quiet departure after university.
The huge disparity was really hard to endure.
From that moment, my heart... was already sick.
I also began to think, not to let you leave me, no matter the means, I infinitely tolerated you, stayed by your side all the time.
I loved you, but I was more afraid of losing you. Subtly, I made you more and more dependent on me, unable to leave me, even... sometimes deliberately making you jealous, giving you a sense of crisis, just to keep you by my side forever.
So, actually, the truly stubborn and possessive person is me.
Do you remember, I ever invited a psychologist for you?
Actually, I am his patient.
