Su Lu took a deep breath, "I'm not softhearted, I just..."
Zhao Ying didn't speak, listening quietly to her.
After a long pause, Su Lu continued, "I actually still can't forgive him."
Zhao Ying thought of the words she had once spoken with Bo Jingshen and, after pondering for a moment, said, "Perhaps, he also has his compelling difficulties..."
"I know he has difficulties." Su Lu's voice was low, "Do you think I don't know? I've always known. I'm aware he has his reasons, even guessing that his troubles must be very serious, that they were reasons so compelling he had no choice but to give up on himself, to abandon me. But I just..."
"Often it's like this, I understand all the reasons, but I still feel sad."
"I understand all the reasons, but I still feel aggrieved."
"I can imagine your difficulties, but it still hurts me too much."
"I still can't understand why you absolutely had to abandon me."
"I was clearly... already so unfortunate."
