I woke up at 4:30 am to watch the sunrise again because we will be leaving this place later. I grabbed my phone and earphones and then I left our room. I greeted the staff before I went out to the hotel.
My hair was blown away by a strong wind as soon as I left the hotel. I sat in my usual spot and plugged the earphones into my ears. I just looked at the dark environment. The music and the dark surroundings are relaxing.
"You lift my feet off the grou--" I stopped singing when someone snatched my earphone from my right ear.
"You spin me around. You make me crazier, crazier." Marvin sang as he looked straight into my eyes.
"Feels like I'm falling 'and I am lost in your eyes. You make me crazier, crazier, crazier." He continued.
We just stared at each other. I never thought he would be with me this morning.
"W-Why are you here?" I asked.
"I want to watch the sunrise with you," Marvin said, smiling.
I just nodded and then I faced the sea again.
"I waited for you to wake up. I know how you love the sunrise, sunset, stars, and moon are. I observed you from a distance." Marvin said.
"You look like a stalker. You creep me out." I said while laughing.
"You fool. I just want to observe you from afar." He simply said.
"Just kidding." I smiled.
We both fell silent. We could only hear music.
"Oh! This is our song." Marvin suddenly said.
"Yeah, it is. One of my fave songs of yours." I said.
"I want to be your superman," Marvin said again.
I just smiled at what Marvin said. It's really different when you hear the things you just imagined before. It's a different feeling when it comes from the person you've wanted to hear. I used to imagine this scenario but now it's all true. All of my waiting was worth it.
"Why are you smiling?" Marvin asked.
"Nothing. I remembered something that I used to imagine. Do you believe in the sign?" I suddenly asked.
"Not really." He replied.
"I do believe it. When I was 20 I used to dream of you. Whenever I dreamed about you, you always have a post on your social media accounts usually on Twitter. At first, I didn't believe it but one night I was at my weakest point then your tweet popped up on my phone. My load was already expired that night but why did it pop up? Usually, when I have no load, I have no notifications from my SNS. Because of that incident, I believed in the sign." I said while smiling.
Marvin was stunned by what I'd say.
"I thought it was all coincidence but I was wrong. Back year 2019, I used to hear your songs but I ignored them. Then 2020 when I was watching one episode of one of the Korean variety shows, you were there, you were a guest. You're very handsome so I asked myself who is this man?" I laughed.
"But after that, I didn't find you. I was too lazy to search your name and what K-pop boy group you belong to. But the universe is at my side. It did let us cross our paths." I continued as my eyes shone looking at him.
"You're always in my prayer," I uttered.
"I'm sorry if I didn't know your existence before," Marvin muttered.
"Hey! It's fine. I'm just your fan so I expected that you don't know my existence every day."
"But from now on, you're not just my fan or our fan. You're our friend and we will protect you at all cost." Marvin said, smiling.
I just smiled sweetly at him.
"Oh! The sun is already rising." I was amazed by the scenery.
"I don't want to be your friend, Louise," Marvin uttered again and my eyes looked at him bluntly.
"I know that. Because you want to be my boyfriend. That's so corny." I said.
He just laughed and looked straight ahead. He thought I didn't know those lines.
"Life is so beautiful." He blurted out.
"But it's hard to live," I said.
"The world is not perfect so your life is," Marvin said.
I let out a big sigh and enjoyed the breeze while watching the sunrise.
"I saw you while you're crying alone," Marvin said again.
I just fell silent. Marvin is too talkative now.
"If you don't want to open up about it, it's fine. I just want to let you know that you already have me and I'll not let you face the storms alone." Marvin said while staring straight into my eyes.
I just stared at Marvin's handsome face. I don't know what to say as long as I know that I already have him, I'm happy.
"You will leave me as well. No one can stay by my side except my mom." I uttered, smiling.
"Don't jump to a conclusion, Louise. What if we will stay as our hair turned into white? We can't predict the future." He said looking ahead.
I fell silent as I looked at him. Marvin is one of the genius and genuine people in the K-pop industry. They said he will think deeply before he will say something that's why he is always quiet in their interviews.
"Do you know what's the meaning of 'the sunset is beautiful isn't it'?" He blurted out.
He changed the topic.
"No," I replied.
"I love you but I'll let you go." He said.
My forehead creased. I don't know that phrase has a different meaning.
"Are you saying that in advance?" I asked him.
His eyes grew bigger while looking at me.
"S-So... So are you saying that you don't want me to let you go?" He said unbelievably.
I immediately looked away. What did I say?
"A-Ah... D-Did I say that? I don't think so." I looked at him and smile awkwardly.
"You said it." He's grinning.
"N-No. I-I have a dissociative identity disorder." I uttered. "T-That's my other personality."
"Okay as you said so." He smiled.
I stared at his face. He looks so good. Until now, I couldn't believe that he would like me. This beautiful human being likes a mess like me.
"Did you have a girlfriend when RealSeven was active before?" I asked.
"I had." He replied.
"Where is she now?" I uttered without looking at him.
"She's now in Australia." He said, looking ahead.
"I-Is she an ordinary girl?" I cleared my throat.
"No. She was an idol before and she's belonged in a famous K-pop girl group." He replied.
"Woah!" My mouth shaped like O. "You're good at hiding huh?"
He chuckled and looked down.
"Hmmm... Why did you two break up?" I asked.
"I don't know." He sounded sad. "She suddenly vanished. I kept finding her but, when I found her she was already with another man."
It was a sad story. Why do people suddenly disappear when they want to leave without saying goodbye? Is it hard to say goodbye to someone who has always been there for you? No, because both of you will still be hurt, and the only difference is the one you left without explanation would be the most in pain among you.
I stroke his back with my hand. "Did you cry?"
"No." He replied.
I sighed heavily. "You can cry right now if you want to."
I felt his gaze at me.
"It's in the past and I don't want to cry when I'm with you." He said.
I looked at him. "Wow!"
"I want to be the happiest person when I'm with you." He uttered, smiling at me.
I hit his head. "Don't flirt with me, okay?"
I saw that he was in pain. Deserved.
"I'm serious about that. Why did you hit me?" He said while holding his head.
"M-My heart flutters." I stuttered.
I looked at the surroundings to avoid his stares.
"I'm glad to hear that." He said.
We fell silent, again. I hate this awkward silence but, I don't know how to break it.
"D-Did you love your girlfriend that much?" I asked while playing sand.
"I did. She was my world, my everything, and my life." He replied.
I looked at him, I saw how his eyes shine like he was reminiscing the past, a beautiful and happy one. That girl was the best gift that he has been received but, sadly she did hurt him.
"Whenever I looked at her, I would forget that I'm tired. She was my rest, my home." He smiled.
He did love her. I hope he cried when he heard that news so that when he's with someone who truly loves him, he wouldn't cry anymore.
"S-She was lucky to have you but, sadly she dumped you," I uttered.
I flinched when he suddenly caressed my hair.
"It's fine." He smiled while his hand was still on the top of my head. "At least I've met you. You don't know how happy I am whenever I see your smile and hear your laughter. Whatever you're going through right now, I hope your smile will never be faded."
I stared at him. This man knows how to flutter my heart and I don't like it. We can't predict the future but, I'm afraid that he would leave when his ex came back into his life. He loves her so much and I don't want to compete with her because she has everything that every man likes. I know she's gorgeous and kind and I'm nothing compared to her.
"Do you have a dream?" He asked out of the blue. He looked into my eyes.
I looked up at the sky to avoid his stares and to think what's the best answer to that question. Should I lie to him or not?
"I had a dream but, I don't know where it is." I laughed bitterly.
The hardest thing you will be encountered is the dreams once you had will suddenly disappear.