I have been trying to hold myself as a strong woman. It's been so long to express myself to anyone as I had a lot to take out from this mind. I wanted to talk but I had never a person who would sat beside me and have that one to one conversation. It's heartbreaking to see myself feeling low today as I had polishing my face for a lot of time to live in a dream. So tough to make him understand that I do feel the same bad as he feels. But why don't you love me the way I wanted you to. I am not asking for the money, I am not for your good looks it's just that I want to talk. Don't be rude to me, I cant handle this. It's been so long that we would had a free conversation, I always saw that we were just making the mind to talk thats it. It was not coming from the heart, and it hurts. "The sky is looking like a hollow cavity wish it would engulf me", I started thinking in mind . There are some ups and downs in every relationship, where there is love there is anger, insecurity too but why? The questions are unanswered about love as there is no single story of true love ever completed. Happiness never come to you easily, it takes your mid term unit tests after frequent periods. I know that I would sometimes cry, sometimes would be happy. This is life. Oh God, I don't under stand why I am so philosophical. So I began a day with a happiness on my face. I don't know what was written in the future it was just that I wanted to live, I wanted to be loved by everyone and wanted to work hard as much as I can but that zeal to work hard never came. I wanted to study for hours but with in minutes I would shatter of. I was so disappointed by myself, so now what to do was a big question fumbling in my mind? I wanted to leave the things behind because you can't keep grudges with everything, it won't affect them. live with yourself not for others. Enjoy your company and never let your past ruin your present. Smile